It's an almost alien concept to me that i'd be in a committed relationship for a year, never did I think that either myself, or my dream other half would be able to cope with each other for that long.
My love life has always been one of miss-trust, no trust and no fun. I've often spent time looking in the wrong place for love and the time I took myself away from it all, was the time I got it.
The story of how I met my other half isn't really amazing, it was a website called Badoo, where you rate other people based on their looks, of course, I voted him a 10 and received a 10 vote back... which is when I messaged him.
I was busy going through a time in my life where I wasn't wanting to start anything serious, but purely for the fear of being hurt. I had a lot of gay friends I had made, some very good looking ones that I got on well with and I could imagine myself being with... but I never took the big risks to make anything happen, because the times I did, as has more often than not been the case, i'd be rejected, which is never a nice feeling.
I'd been messaging Suny for some time before we met, I think about 6 months in total. We got on well as friends and we had arranged to meet up several times before we actually did, but i'd get let down by him, because he'd not turn up and send no messages. One day though, he did turn up.
I remember i'd come back from work and been tired as i'd been up working since 6am, we arranged to meet up as we usually did and I returned home, after walking the doggy, I climbed on the bed, ready to receive another message saying he couldn't come, or i'd be ignored, in either case, nothing would happen for me.
An hour or so later, my phone buzzed and woke me up, I didn't even know i'd nodded off, but I must have! I was slumped over the end of the bed, wow, I must have been tired! I looked at my phone, the message said "I think i'm here", I said ok and quickly began to throw some clothes on since I've always found it best to not meet up naked on the first date.
After a few minutes, I made my way downstairs... no sign of anyone. I called him and said "Where are you?" and he said he was infront of the brown fences... WHAT brown fences????
I remembered a while ago when a friend of mine had come to visit, that my postcode can actually take you onto a different road altogether, so, I made my way around to this other road, while on the phone to Suny. THERE. HE. WAS.
I was scared, but remained calm somehow. I made my way over to the car... and my god, the pictures weren't fake, he did look like that... omg... what the hell was going on?
I got into the car and we went to the nearby McDonalds for a drink, which is where we sat in the car going through music and I discovered he is a fan of Justin Bieber. At this point, I suppose I should have gotten out and ran away, but no, I thought, i'll give him the benefit of the doubt. We chatted and chatted and eventually drove on to another car park up at the top of a hill near me. We took a little walk through the woods and went and sat in a park.
Nobody else was around, just us two talking. My memory does fade at this point, but I believe it was here we had our first kiss, or certainly the idea crossed my mind anyway. Eventually though, the sun was going down (the one in the sky, not the one I was on a date with) and it was time to be heading home. I said to Suny that he was welcome to come into mine and meet my dog, which he did. We sat and watched TV and did begin all the kissing and such.... But NO, ladies and gents, he did NOT stay over, nor did we have SEX... I do have SOME morals... just, don't know where they are.
It has been over a year since that happened. This post marks the day when we were lay out on the couch in my living room and Suny ever so romantically said "So, you gonna be ma boy then"... I know, whoever said romance was dead hey? ... And I accepted.
It's shocking for me, it really is, to have gone through with my love life the way it has been, getting cheated on by my first boyfriend, to this... I've no idea how it all works, but I didn't think I could sit here and say "I've been in a relationship, for a year" ever.
So... Here's to another year... Who knows what this next year holds hey!